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There comes a stage within a relationship when the honeymoon is over, reality hits and you’re stuck with the unpleasant characteristics of one another. The past few weeks have felt that way, and today it really sunk in. I new something was wrong, the vibe and body language has took a 180. I understand, I’m in a new city, I know close to nobody and he has been my only social outlet since moving here. Naturally things have progressed at a faster rate than usual. I told him that I felt that he doesn’t look at me the same way he used to from when we started dating. I understand, work has been stressful for him lately…but that’s why people leave their work at work. Recently it’s like he brings it home, he looks as if he’s uninterested in being around me and at this point I around him. Idk, I feel things would be different if I felt more stable with my situation as a whole and he would finally quit his job. But then, maybe this is him, maybe this is how he truly lives his life. Is it worth it for me…

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Today was a semi-productive day, luckily it’s not over and I can still accomplish much. I did 60 minutes of card and level one of Jillian Michaels 6 week six pack video. Now I’m just reading up and preparing for my interview tomorrow. I’m super nervous but I’ll be energetic and enthusiastic because what this organization is doing is life changing and I want to be apart of it it anyway that I can. K, back to reviewing =)

I haven’t written much but I’ll be getting back on track. Tomorrow is a new day, lets call it the day I stop feeling sorry for myself and get back my life. The key is to envision what you want and to not lose sight of it. Today I made a vision board of all my goals for the next 30 days. I decided it was easier to make monthly goals instead of long one’s that I may lose sight of down the long run. I’m better than I give myself credit, I just need to be able to believe in myself more to get what I want. So here are my goals for the week, soon to be known as accomplishments =) Update this Wednesday!!!!

Weight wise: (goal 1-2 lbs)

• Run 45-60 mins a day
• Do weight lifting or sculpting mini workouts
• Eat healthy, more greens less sugars and fats (moderation)

Career wise: (more interviews, a stable job)

• Bring my personality with me to my interview at the autism center and not bring my fears and doubts of being unemployed for the last months with me. This could be my job, work hard and show them that I deserve it.
• Apply to more places.

Finance wise: 

• Pay rent and other bills on time. Don’t stress what I can and can’t do at the moment. My time will come when I no longer have to worry and live paycheck to paycheck.

Personal goal:

• be more optimistic
• be friendly
• and don’t let my hard times get in the way.

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Day 46: 10lbs lost!!!

So I’ve been doing terrible on month number two thus far. When we last left off, I noted that life was getting in the way and I clutched that as an excuse. I actually haven’t been running since last Friday, almost a week now! And as of yesterday, life really kicked me in the ass, this whole week has been terrible, weight loss has only been due to the fact that I haven’t been eating as much because I’m so stressed out and overwhelmed at the moment. I literally unhappy and my body is wasting away and not the healthy way. I guess I should be glad that I’m almost to my goal but I can’t be glad if it’s being achieved my default. Progress pics tonight…

Noted.

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Day ?:

I took a three day weekend off, I let my life get in the way :( Today I get back on Insanity, although my life isn’t at a place it should or I want it to be. I will no longer let my workout schedule suffer. Day 45 is in two days, let’s see if I can still make it…

Life has been confusing for me lately. Today, I hit a low point and have literally been laying in bed all day. I’ve been feeling extremely unmotivated, particularly distant and somewhat irritable. I knew what I wanted out of this summer and I don’t know if I still want the same things. Just months ago, I was living in MI still conflicted but at least I had friends. Here, I live in a city that might be too fast, even more conflicted and find myself alone 95% of the time. I never thought I end up being that girl who can’t be single, or can’t be a lone. It truly does suck you know, not only being able to wake up to the person you kinda love but even worst, not having friends to hang out with on the regular.

I just wish things were different, but I heard you’re the key to creating your own happiness. However my happiness has been virtually unattainable… the things I truly want don’t agree with the people in my life. This is unfortunate, for others to make you suffer just so they can feel comfortable you know. We can’t always get what we want, and to that I say FUCK IT!

I’m 24, I shouldn’t need permission to do “stupid” things. If I want to move away without a plan, so be it. If I want to be with the one I love, so be it. If I want to start over…over and over again, why the hell should anyone care? So what if I move away just to move back again, don’t question it. So what if the one I love ultimately doesn’t love me back, I make mistakes, love can happen more than once. So what if I’m starting over again for the 1000th time, it means the other 999 times weren’t on my level. What I’m trying to say is, that by pleasing everyone else, I’m constricted to this confused state. I no longer want to be a part of this club, time to start my life, my way…

Month two is so difficult. I hate making excuses, but sometimes my body needs a rest. I’m not a quitter, tomorrow is a fresh day for getting back on track…